Monday, December 13, 2010

Diving For Pearls

















The routine familiar
since she was ten
standing on the edge of a boat
without benefit of tanks

diving deep into murky waters

to clusters of oyster beds
filling the basket
before her breath ran out

working quickly in the silent world

coming up for air
then a hundred feet down again
collecting a thousand shells
hoping to find the perfect pearls

to set on strings for strangers.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

The Reflection In The Mirror

















She studies her face carefully
sees the flaws in open pores
wrinkles around the mouth
a nose too big
and eyes too small

She begins the repair
first a stringent to clean the pores
then creams to soften the wrinkles
make-up to cover the blemishes
shadow to widen the eyes and narrow the nose
blush to make her look alive
and a nice lipstick to bring attention to her mouth
the first orifice for contact.

She sprays herself with a sweet perfume
"something to attract the opposite sex.”
Finds jewelry to match her outfit
dangly earrings and the right necklace
maybe some bangles for the wrist
and a golden chain for her ankle
off-set by three inch heels
now she is ready to face the world…

painted and off balance.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

The House Made of Plaster






















Knock on the wall and anyone can
tell your house is made
of plaster. Your visitors will
see you as modern family
stepping up from your ancestral
mud with a product and style
from the new millennium.

Pack your bags it’s time to
move to California where there
are beaches and sunshine
year round. The place is filled
with blue eyed blonds
so in order to fit in you must forget
your native habits and notions.

Arrange your plaster saints along
the mantel. Pray often, don’t let God
deny you. Seek absolution for
your envy and jealousy.
Smile and hide the pain, don’t
let anyone bar your children
from the many opportunities.

Wash the windows and don’t leave
streaks because everyone is looking
in. Hide your sorrow and your fear
pretend everything is fine. You’ll
make it through each day if you
conceal your pride and look to the
future to claim the American dream.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Painted Memories
















Scorched by the burning sun
from early morning to late afternoon
we tried to dig a tunnel to China

but gave up after three feet
to play in the hole covered
with a woolen blanket
woven in patterns
of turquoise and scarlet.

Saturday night baths and bathtub rings,
yellow borders on silk bandannas,
we knelt in dark confessionals
and recited our sins from a list,
written in cursive by our mother.

Evening benediction made us sneeze
the incense lingered ‘til Sunday Mass
then we were off to grandpa’s farm
beyond the bread ovens of the Navajo.

Over the bridge, past the man
with a brown face and a tootless grin
who always waved when we went by
in our red and white station wagon.

We followed burnt umber roads
to a white washed house
in the middle of the farmland.

The adults gathered to laugh out loud,
to tease each other and share a meal
but spoke too fast in Spanish.

We couldn’t understand a word they said
so we ran off to an abandoned house
we knew was haunted.

Threw rotten eggs
on the crumbled walls
then told ghost stories

played tag between the rows
of dried corn stalks until we saw
the sky dusted in crimson and gold.

One by one, we left the place
that housed our families for generations.

Over time, “we” became “I”,
no common history or recent memory
except when we were children long ago
in the painted hills of New Mexico.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

After The Rain
















When the dirt road became a stream,
just after the hard rain,
we ran out in our underwear

in view of my mother’s attentive eyes
we forgot about the modesty
preached from the Sunday pulpit

we frolicked in the muddy soup,
semi-naked children, rising
up from the primal ooze.

Neighbor’s peeked out
from behind laced curtains
when they heard our shrieks.

Soon they ran out with white
arms flailing, joining us in the
pleasure of our summer dance.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Sandy Turned Fifty-five

This poem was created from a conversation with a guest
at my niece's wedding. Most of it is true.
















In a cheap motel outside of Bakersfield
Sandy stared at her reflection.

She wiped her cheeks where her tears
left streaks in her make-up.

Dennis looked at her and scowled,
“You can’t turn back the hands of time…
so deal with it… You’re fifty-five.”

Choking on the smoke from his cigarette
she grabbed her green sweater
and walked out the door.

In the lobby the TV
buzzed and rattled with the news.

Men in their cowboy boots,
women in their rhinestone skirts,
stood with their heads and shoulders touching.
Sandy could hear them sobbing.

“Are you crying for me?” she asked.
“Buck Owens died today,” she heard someone say.
“I guess there won’t be a celebration then,” she sighed.

Sandy pulled her sweater tighter around
her shoulders turned and walked away

the day Buck Owens died
and she turned fifty-five.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Between the Lines






















The lines on my face
trace the good times
and the bad,

like when my
mother died,
a stone replaced my heart and
my lips never turned up again

but the lines of my face,

especially around my eyes,

still miss her
when I look for her
and see she is gone.